Today is my birthday. I’m not doing anything special, just the usual Sunday chores and putterings, but I have been thinking about the last year of my life and what it means for my future.
This time last year I was celebrating with friends, severing a very caustic relationship, and navigating my way carefully into someone’s life. The year has been cathartic, cleansing. I have managed to make the tough decisions necessary for me to be happy, and I don’t have any regrets. I’m different now, but somehow I am exactly the way I was meant to be; happy.
Often times birthdays cause people to think back on their lives and sum up their accomplishments and failures; not me. I am taking this day to look toward the future and embrace every change that I have orchestrated over the past year. I have often said that change is difficult, but I believe it is necessary if we are to open our lives to new paths and new adventures.
The season of my discontent is over, and I can finally see things more clearly. I breathe in each day and all its newness. I am no longer afraid of the turns my life will take. I am not looking back anymore; I’m not critiquing my actions of the past. I am leaving what’s done where it belongs; behind me.
It’s my birthday, and I have given myself the greatest gift of all; my happiness.
“Sometimes the ups and downs of life need to be balanced by the evens. Between your peaks and valleys, plateau. For a while, seek neither the highest heights nor the deepest depths. Let things be on an even keel. Plateau. Give yourself a respite from the drama and the turmoil. Take a break from the incessant push to find a new job, to upgrade your computer, to meet the perfect somebody, to gain ten pounds or lose twenty, to move to a new city, to go back to school. When things level off, let them stay level. Recharge and refresh your batteries. Look to the horizon without rushing to touch it up close. There will be more highs; there will be more lows. But for now, take it easy; plateau.” ~ Rachel Snyder
I’m getting close to my plateau. The crazy stir of my life is slowing down and I am able to see level ground more easily now. For months, time has been my enemy. Now, time is my motivator.
I’m almost done here. I’m making my plans, organizing, preparing. I’m treading carefully, but I’m not looking back. I feel the rise of my path beginning to level out now. For the first time in months, my plateau is coming into view.
The turn of my life is slowing down and I have found my place with an amazing woman. I have waited a so long to find someone who wants me to be me, from the beginning, she has wanted me to be myself. All my flaws, my bad habits, my wonky smile, the crazy hair, my love of dogs, my quiet and my loud; she wants that. With so much happening at the speed of light over the past year, I have to catch myself sometimes and look around, just to make sure it’s all real. It is.
She is my plateau.
“Ignore ignorant minds and ignorant actions. When half-truths or untruths are cast in your direction, ignore them. When you receive letters filled with vituperative trash, tear them up and throw them into the fire. To repel unwanted and untoward advances, ignore them. Ignore all kinds of verbal slings and arrows. Turn away, turn around, and walk away. Turn the other cheek. Say good-bye, and then hang up the phone. Pay no attention to the ravings of jealous fools. Ignore unfounded slurs on your character and your reputation. Give them no fuel, and they will eventually die out. To reject, ignore. To snuff, ignore. You suffer no ignominy when you choose to ignore.” ~Rachel Snyder
Change is difficult. Sometimes the people in your life don’t agree with the changes you are going through; they resist and sabotage the change every step of the way. Ignore them. Ignore them all.
Embrace your change and keep your focus. Don’t let the negative energy of others stall you out half way through, push harder and keep moving forward. Those who do no support your journey, don’t need to join you. Ignore everything, and everyone, that isn’t in line with where you are headed. Ignore the negative, the bitter, the dislike; just ignore it.