“Guard fiercely that which others want most to wrest from you. Your inner wild places and the freedom to visit them often. The gateways to your very soul, the keys to your secret garden and all that you cultivate therin. Guard against attacks of all sorts by those who covet your light and envy your brilliance. Create shields visible and invisible, and infuse them with the power to deflect invasions of your body, mind, and spirit. Guard the security of your home as if it were more valuable than the grandest place on Earth, for surely it is. Establish your personal boundaries and guard them against interlopers who would barge in against your will. Be the guardian of your own solitude and that of others, and peace shall always be yours.” ~ Rachel Snyder
Sometimes things don’t quite work out the way you had planned, and you have to make some drastic changes in your life; this is especially difficult when it involves dissolving a relationship that is toxic and damaging. Well, having dissolved the relationship, I am now faced with guarding what it is I have chosen for my new life, and guard it I will.
Some people would say I gave up and quit on something that I should have fought harder to keep, but those people don’t know the whole story. The details of that situation are no longer important; what is important is that I got out because I realized that I no longer guarded what was important to me. I let everything I knew about myself get taken away without a fight. No more.
Life can be incredibly complicated and unpredictable, but there is a way around all the chaos; guard. Guard what you have learned about yourself, and trust it. Guard your heart from hate and fear. Guard your sense of worth and ignore the challengers that say you are less than you truly are. Guard your character and dismiss those who would try to create a false picture of your life. Guard yourself from the anger of others by letting go of your own anger. Guard all that is yours, material and emotional, and guard it with your life.
The past few years have taught me that sometimes a sense of self-preservation will lead you away from people, but it will also lead you toward those who you do not have to guard yourself against.